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But gradually, when CVs and some serious stuff appeared, I was a bit taken a back.
I just got to have a look at what others have done that can get them through the first short list. Yes, Round 1 is about getting short listed! I am not at all sure if I will get through even that!
At the time of preparing the CV, I was a proud-thinker; thinking of the best achievements of the world, i.e., the ones that I had included in my CV.
But when I tried to have a look at what others had in their list of achievements, I was left with a low-mood! The girls are amazing. They really are. And I stand just no where!
The firm has not declared any results yet! We are still waiting. But for the time being, I have just shouted my heart loud here! Yes! I AM tired of thinking why-and-what. My last-to-last post may seem a bit contradictory in this context. That was about internships! Now is about a final placement! Seems I am not yet that carefree girl I had boasted of having turned into, in that post.
But, what can I do? Anxiety is human behaviour. I need strength to face the results whatever they may be. And I must STOP imagining the Utopia- A grand job, the best life, luxuries. They all seem so faded when rejection appears as one of the possible candidates to occupy the throne of future!
But gradually, when CVs and some serious stuff appeared, I was a bit taken a back.
I just got to have a look at what others have done that can get them through the first short list. Yes, Round 1 is about getting short listed! I am not at all sure if I will get through even that!
At the time of preparing the CV, I was a proud-thinker; thinking of the best achievements of the world, i.e., the ones that I had included in my CV.
But when I tried to have a look at what others had in their list of achievements, I was left with a low-mood! The girls are amazing. They really are. And I stand just no where!
The firm has not declared any results yet! We are still waiting. But for the time being, I have just shouted my heart loud here! Yes! I AM tired of thinking why-and-what. My last-to-last post may seem a bit contradictory in this context. That was about internships! Now is about a final placement! Seems I am not yet that carefree girl I had boasted of having turned into, in that post.
But, what can I do? Anxiety is human behaviour. I need strength to face the results whatever they may be. And I must STOP imagining the Utopia- A grand job, the best life, luxuries. They all seem so faded when rejection appears as one of the possible candidates to occupy the throne of future!
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