My vision turned a little blurred as I read and re-read the list of candidates shortlisted- trying to tell my self, "I am wrong, lets read it once again" . The tear, originating from my eye, trickled down my cheek; My vision had lost its dirt and my dreams, their hopes!
So...I am not in the list!
Yes, the very Company that I had written about in my last post, has chosen not to let me in. The first five minutes of my encounter with the P-cell notice board seemed like 5 years; as in 5 years of long had work with little, or better, NO result at all.
I seriously admit that my CV has nothing very recommendable about it. The achievements, which they hardly are, are pretty average. When you see what all the other people have done, I appear a very prominent- average person. I have been saying this since, yes my favorite, 1927!!
But I am a human being too. And to expect something from my own self is quite natural. I have been giving my self false hopes about quite a number of things now. And it can't stop- In spite of the repeated rejections!
You see how it is, there are just 7 girls out of the 'many^10..." who applied. All of the rejected are disappointed. But in midst of their disappointment, nobody has forgotten to 'comment' on 'why the 7 persons should have NOT been there'. Mea Culpa! I am in the list of the culprits too. But as I write, there is the feeling that "be it". Not out of ignorance or jealousy, but sportsmanship! It is a game. Somebody will have to lose. Some will win. It is all okay.
I wish all the selected girls all the best. Mean while, I am applying...!!
So...I am not in the list!
Yes, the very Company that I had written about in my last post, has chosen not to let me in. The first five minutes of my encounter with the P-cell notice board seemed like 5 years; as in 5 years of long had work with little, or better, NO result at all.
I seriously admit that my CV has nothing very recommendable about it. The achievements, which they hardly are, are pretty average. When you see what all the other people have done, I appear a very prominent- average person. I have been saying this since, yes my favorite, 1927!!
But I am a human being too. And to expect something from my own self is quite natural. I have been giving my self false hopes about quite a number of things now. And it can't stop- In spite of the repeated rejections!
You see how it is, there are just 7 girls out of the 'many^10..." who applied. All of the rejected are disappointed. But in midst of their disappointment, nobody has forgotten to 'comment' on 'why the 7 persons should have NOT been there'. Mea Culpa! I am in the list of the culprits too. But as I write, there is the feeling that "be it". Not out of ignorance or jealousy, but sportsmanship! It is a game. Somebody will have to lose. Some will win. It is all okay.
I wish all the selected girls all the best. Mean while, I am applying...!!
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